I am 75 years old but feel 30 my husband was the same age as me but died suddenly at forty-five he was my sole mate and I never wanted to replace him.  I felt hurt  angry, lonely and sad when he died all the usual feelings but my son we only had the one helped me through it , but he has his own life so I had to do the same and find my own way.  I joined some clubs but they were not for me.  I was still looking, so I started exercising to keep myself fit and eating healthily.  I decided to do work for charity.  I went on sponsored walks, and sponsored swims, climbing and I even jumped out of a plane.  I give my time to a charity shop.  It is funny how things work out none of these things I would of done if my husband would of lived.  My life is not over yet I still have plenty of things up my sleeve.  I want to travel to see the wonders of the world and visit the pope.  I will write again when I have done more i still miss my husband even after all these years but I am sure he is with me somewhere