Short Story
In 3
days I hit the big 40 which is scarring me
really
I was a battered wife for 10 years I really
thought he could change but never did he had his
last attack in January 2002 which he went to
prison for... We had 4 children and they all
witnessed the violence so I made a life changing
decision and never went back..
A year
later I was diagnosed with a rare form of
cervical cancer which I am happy to say is in
remission but every unwell feeling make you
wonder is it or am I just paranoid.
After staying on my own for 3 years. I meet my
current husband who swept me off my feet made me
feel things I have never felt. We were married
within 8 months as he is in the Army...
Suddenly on the 20th Dec 11 days before we got
married (New years Eve)my Father died which left
me in bits as I was an only child who was very
close to my Dad... But we carried on with the
wedding as that was what he would have wanted..
I then moved with my 2 youngest children and my
eldest boys stayed with my Mother, their choice
because of their friends and school. Which felt
awful leaving them but I came home every other
weekend.My husband had a crazy ex wife which he
had 2 children with. She ended up with the
children on the at risk register because of
neglect and she drank like a trooper. After a
year long battle we now have the children.
This
has been an up hill struggle as you can imagine.
We moved again further away this time which made
it difficult to go home. Then my Mum was
diagnosed with lung cancer no she didnt smoke,
after a year long battle she lost her fight this
July. Having to watch my Mum waste away for the
last 6 weeks of her life, is what is with me
now, could I have done more for her but I had 6
children to look after and a 125 mile journey to
make every other day but through all this my
Husband has stood by me in his own strange way
helped with all the kids and never moaned. Guilt
has paid a large part in my life guilt about
putting my kids through that lifestyle, guilt
about not really making my parents proud, I hope
they are proud of me as they watch over me now..
Through all the sadness that has happened to
myself and my family I have been strong and
tried to always be positive. I push myself to
perfection which gets on my husbands nerves but
hey that is me.
I have moved on and bought 3 buy to let
properties one of which I bought when I was a
single parent, I have my own company and we are
all moving to Canada in the new year so life is
good now, and I have some cherished memories of
my Parents who have made me who I am today.
Anyone can do it if they put their mind to it.
What will be will be so BE HAPPY ALWAYS
